LIFE....

Things are going great right now, things are looking up. As long as life isn't standing so still that I feel like someone pressed the pause button I am happy. I begged Jared to get gym memberships again, so we got them. I ran into a familiar issue that I had while breastfeeding Easton... I pushed it hard at the gym a week ago, I started out with ten minutes of cardio, then lifted, and did abs. I ended my workout in the sauna, then went home. The next day I did lots and lots of lunges, wind sprints, and squats. The next day my WHOLE BODY was extremely sore, it felt awesome.
 Unfortunately I noticed my milk supply going down, I burned a bunch of calories, put my body into shock and it effected my milk supply... I did the same thing when I was nursing Easton, I ended up actually losing my milk with him and I had to re lactate. Luckily I didn't fully lose my milk this time, I caught it in time. I am going to cut out the cardio and stick to building muscle. Once I am done nursing I am going to jump back into my workout schedule, I am counting down the months!!!!!!!

Easton is doing awesome with his baby sister, it is seriously a dream come true. I have a boy and a girl, a wonderful husband, and we are home owners. We have our share of problems, but TOGETHER we are slowly erasing our problems and turning them into positive lessons learned. I am so thankful to be able to grow together in our marriage and learn from our mistakes. I believe in our future because I REFUSE to let anyone or anything get the best of me.
 I am so head strong sometimes my head and I get into a fight and my head usually wins lol. I find myself wondering if I am good enough, what people think about me, how I make people feel, and over thinking things... I need to find a balance and realize that it doesn't matter what people think and being accepted by others does not mean that you have fulfilled your journey in life. Deep down I know this, but my anxiety gets the best of me and like I said before "my head wins".

Jared is doing fantastic at work, he is one of the top agents, he has made the diamond club which is a HUGE deal, and he is being considered for a managers position. He has grown so much from the time I first moved in with him until now, I am very proud of him and his accomplishments. I am not only proud, but very thankful that he is working and providing for our family. I never thought we would ever be where we are, I especially didn't think we would already have two children, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
We are not rich, we are extremely blessed and I think that's a million times better!
Boston is doing amazing, she is such a great baby. She is getting big and chubby like brother was, just at a slower pace and of course she is more petite like a girl should be. For being two average sized adults we have some big kids! Easton is tall for his age, advanced, has big feet, and his weight is still over 90 percentile. He has leveled out, he hit 99 percentile growing up, every month his just got taller and chubbier. Boston was born 7.1, never lost any weight, but had gained weight after the first week. With breastfed babies that doesn't happen very often, very thankful to be able to feed my babies some good milk.

She will be 2 months old on June 2nd, I cannot wait to see how much she weighs! Eastons 2nd birthday is August 10th which is in 70 days!!! I cannot believe my baby is already going to be 2 years old, he is growing up to be such a well behaved young man. I will be making his cake this time, my friend Sara who makes cakes will be guiding me and telling me how to do it. I couldn't be more excited, his cake will be bigger and MUCH nicer than last year, I made a mistake in trusting someone I didn't know to make it and it was melted when it showed up..
 Normally that wouldn't matter, but it was a three tier cake so it looked horrible. We will most likely be renting out some kind of kids play area like jumping jacks for his big day so he can run wild and have fun. I already have Bostons first birthday cake designed in my head, lets not go there just yet lol, after all she isn't even 2 months old yet. I love my kids so much, I do the things I do because they deserve the best. I give them everything I never had, the nicest clothes, the biggest birthdays, and most importantly a sober and dedicated mother. I better get to bed, sweet dreams...

Stay Beautiful...


I will model again...

 

I WILL LOOK LIKE THIS AGAIN.....

THIS BODY WILL BE BACK ONE DAY

I AM MOTIVATED, I AM NOT DEPRECIATED.